Hey you. How’s it going? It’s been a while since I’ve written anything on my site. Please forgive me.
I wanted to just sit & write about something that’s been weighing heavy on me. I hope I’m able to get my point across eloquently.
So, as many of you probably know, I have a YouTube channel. Not a huge one, but I’m able to interact with lovely people all around the world. About a week ago I got a comment from a subscriber that kind of… well… shook me up. The subscriber said that based off of my Instagram feed, she would love to have my lifestyle and be me. Be. Me. I immediately teared up while reading that… and not because I felt great. This person has no idea that in 72 hours I have my routine appointment with my therapist. This person has no idea that I deal with depression and anxiety to the point where there are days I can’t leave my bed because I physically cannot muster up the energy to do so (Thank God this has gotten loads better). This person does not want to be me.
With that being said, let’s discuss my title choice. “The New OCD”.
Obsessive Comparison Disorder.
Yes, absolutely made up and a play on words. But this is quite literally what I feel is happening to so many of us. Why have we become so obsessed with other people? Their lives? Their appearance? Why are we constantly comparing ourselves to other people? Why do we feel inadequate? Why aren’t we captivating?